It was quite a change to transition from a crowded bar or a packed theatre, to performing in a living room in front of a small crowd of about 20. Some of my best friends were there, and as some live in a different city, it was the first time they had seen me perform.
I have never been so nervous to perform in front of a crowd.
When you're in front of a room full of strangers, it's really no skin off your nose if they didn't like it. You'll likely not see them again anyway. And there's no expectation that all your heartfelt confessions are necessarily whole truths, poets have artistic licence to tell a good story and strangers are none the wiser.
But a room full of mates, who know your history, who you'll certainly see again, and whose opinion you generally value... well that's another story altogether!
But with the nervous also came the beautiful. The banter between poems was electric, and the love and support was amazing. My toughest, yet most rewarding gig yet.
Love you guys, you know who you are xx